What is the key
To untie the knot of the mind's suffering?Benevolent thought, sound
And movement. — Hafiz
Hello there.
I’m Frederik. This is a diary of my journey.
It used to be something else. I was trained to be an investor and when I started writing, it was about topics like money or successful investors like Warren Buffett.
Now, I write about what is alive for me. And right now, that is mostly the rapid and strange unfolding of my own journey.
My favorite metaphor is that of the labyrinth, what Umberto Eco called an “archetypal structure” because it resembles our “way of thinking about the world.” It’s a journey to our center — our truth, our demons, and the source of our energy.
My journey went something like this.
Born in 1986 in Tübingen, Germany
Teenager: awkward, nerdy, withdrawn
Get a B.S. in
BSBusiness AdministrationMove to New York; work in finance. A romantic pretending to be an analyst working out my daddy issues
COVID: my journey begins when I get laid off and feel completely stuck. I just
can’t figure out the next move. First interaction with psychedelics. Lots of time walking in the forest. Started writing this Substack
I start down a spiritual rabbit hole and things got pretty strange and dark
Today, the substack is my personal surrender experiment. I share what I experience, what inspires me, what triggers my curiosity. Things are getting super weird. Fun. But weird. But fun.
What have I learned so far?
Honestly, mostly just how to show up, be present, and conjure up energy. How to walk toward the center of the spiral. How to befriend spirit.
There is an invisible path, one of purpose and aliveness, of expanding love and consciousness. The only way to find it is to be in motion.
“Most of the time I was convinced I'd lost it. But there were other times... I thought I was mainlining the secret truth of the universe. — Rust Cohle, True Detective
If you too are on a journey, you may find value in mind-body journaling which I practice most mornings.
It’s one way to be in motion, meet your shadow, and find your gold. It’s a way of connecting with the source of creativity. All you need is pen and paper. The page is a powerful portal for transformation. It’s a way of moving through this strange time of a dying world, this twilight zone or Bardo, the space between death and rebirth.
I don’t think we get to exit until we re-write our story.
It’s time to move, to transform fear into love and despair into hope.
I do not know what awaits us, but I hope my work will benefit you.
I am rooting for you.
— Frederik
Put your body in motion and your psyche will heal itself. — Gabrielle Roth
